Ava and Lila: Mothers Day..

It has been a while since I last posted.. and I am thinking about how fast time goes.. and what better time to reflect on it then Mothers Day.. My life as a Mom.. well it didn't start out quit as planned and I have definitely had more tough times then a new Mother expects.. but I guess that is what it is all about, how you make it through those tough times and that developes me as a Mother.

This new "role" started when Ava was born 3 months early.. I didn't get to hold her when she was born, they took her off right away only to bring her back 2 hours later in an isolette ready to be taken by ambulance to another hospital.. I remember reaching in a little hole on the side to touch her for the first time.. Then we named her Ava Beverly and signed some papers stating that I understand there could be an accident in route to the hospital and had to approve for them to take away my new daughter. The nurses gave me a picture of her, which was not the pretty little newborn picture..instead she had tubes in her mouth and was so black and blue and swollen you barley tell it was a little baby.. but I fell in LOVE.. I would not move that picture from my bed and remember thinking she was the most beautiful baby ever. I wasn't able to hold her until she was about 6 days old ( I am guessing.. for some reason I think it was longer)..and then I was able to nurse and give her a bottle about 5 weeks later.. So my Mothering skills weren't put to the test yet.. only the emotional rollercoaster of being a Mother and watching you child fight to grow...but you know you have to be STRONG for your child.. So 11 weeks later my Mothering skills were put to the test... and I was pretty good at it.. I was able to finally be a Mommy and take care of my little princess!!!!!!

8 months later we found out that I was pregnant again.. immediately we thought.. oh my gosh.. how are we going to do this.. fast forward through 12 weeks of bedrest including 3 weeks in the hospital.. I was preparing to be the Mother of two.. this time I was able to hold my baby the minute she was born and it was PERFECT!!! I fell in Love again!!! I am so glad I was able to experience that feeling of holding your child and that immediate bond you have with them..

This year will start a new chapter in my Mothering book.. School.. Ava will start preschool in the fall.. I can't believe it.. This will be the first time we have left her somewhere without us.. I am sure that will open up a whole new set of emotions... but I am so excited for her..she is SO ready!

So looking back I have had a little bit different path then most new Moms.. but I would change it for the world.. I have the two most BEAUTIFUL daughters in the world!! Sure..my days are crazy and hectic.. but I wouldn't charge it for anything!!!!

Here are some picture of our special day.. (they are kind of out of order)

Lila kissing GG's grave.. so cute!